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[Apr. 15th, 2006|09:14 pm] |
Please don't ask
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| it is dark outside... |
[Apr. 7th, 2006|01:10 am] |
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| | My room | ] |
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...and i can not sleep.....
Slowly i think i really drink to much coffe during the day ;-)..hehe.....
The last weeks were okay not the best but also not the worst. Sometimes i really felt high and than I felt like i was laying deep on the floor....but now i am feeling okay.
I didn't write much in my LJ because i wasn't in a mood to write. This is not the whole true...i just wasn't in a mood to write in english....over the last week i was writing much.....a few stories.. (ff's) and I Think they are good. People tell me they love my little Storie and it makes me proud!
Next saturday my little Cousin René becomes 18...this means he will become full of age....it will be a big party and i am lookin forward to it. I can't believe that he is sooooo "old"...he was always like a little brother to me! Every weeken he was sleeping in our home. there are lot of funny memories....
So I will end now....it is late....I am tired...
Kiss and hug you all
Rock_N_Roxy |
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| AWAKE!!!! |
[Mar. 23rd, 2006|01:30 am] |
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Oh god....
I can not sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Toooooooo much coffee!!!! |
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| again the second place....... |
[Mar. 13th, 2006|01:59 pm] |
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....yeah yesterday i had a tournment again and we've won the second place but it was soooooooo much better than the week before.
Because the winner are the biggest favourites of the whole tournment and last year we had so much diffrents in the Points but yesterday we were so close....ONLY 2/10 diffrence...this is NOTHING!!!!!! *whooooooooooheeeee*
We are very strong this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
@ Hanna
Hope you are feeling better and i am hoping that you have enjoyed your weekend on your own!!!!
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| I'm still alive |
[Mar. 6th, 2006|02:45 pm] |
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Yeah....I am still alive....
Sorry i didn't write for a long time, but i had a lot of stress and there was carnival....*grin* I don't know how I've survived it (carnival) but i have!!!! It was sooo funny but also very exhausting....Every day (I celebrated 6 days) i had a different costume...hehe I was a cowgirl...a gangster bride...a mariechen (two times)...my dance costume aaaaaaand....Narcissa Malfoy.....
It was so funny, one of my best friends Simon and I decided to disguise as the Malfoy couple...and then on Jenny's birthday party, as we had a lot of wine intus...Simon and I changed our costumes...hahahaha he was Narcissa and I was Lucius...it was so funny...our friends couldn't stop to laugh!!!!
Yesterday i had my first dance tournmentin this Session....it was great...we've won the second place!!!! It's a good start!!!
Yesterday, also I had my ultimative drive-experience...hehe...I was driven to the tournment with my father's mercedez and i was driven over 180 KM/H (nearly 200KM/H)...it was soooo whhhhhhoooooooooooooooheeeeeeeeeeeee....... |
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[Dec. 28th, 2005|02:51 pm] |
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yeaterday I've found a suprise in my mail box...
There was an envelope with a Maria Friedman autograph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| For maddogs991 |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|10:16 pm] |
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( Read more... ) |
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[Dec. 14th, 2005|09:37 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Il Divo: Ave Maria | ] |
I love this Bow....lol
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| two girls do crazy things.... |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|09:06 pm] |
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| |  giggly | ] |
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| | Il Divo: Unchained melody | ] |
My friend Jenny and I have a new "hobby", we love to read fanfictions. Okay that's not really crazy if we are honest you can say it's normal but last tuesday we recovered slash stories.....BLÄÄÄÄÄHHHHH that's soooooooooooooo cruel....we sat on her computer and we've read this stories with a mixture of fascination and disgust. The most crazy thing was that we listen to Il Divo :Ave Maria while we were reading this stories ......aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh it was such a grotesque picture...... :-/ |
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| no ideas..... |
[Dec. 4th, 2005|09:38 pm] |
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Yeah... it's christmas time and need so many presents that I don't know where I should start.....:-/
Need really "Inspiration" what I should give to my friends and family...... Hope I will get this Inspiration!!!!! |
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| Wonderful News |
[Dec. 1st, 2005|10:44 pm] |
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Yeah today I have booked the flight for my Cousin Ana from Croatia! I am so glad that she will finally visit me in Duisburg! Every summer my family and I drive to Croatia to visit her and the family and it will be the first time that she will visit me here.....
Oh god I still can't believe it!!!!
It will be wonderful 16 days....... |
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| What a crazy week....(...in a positive way:-)) |
[Nov. 25th, 2005|07:17 pm] |
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Yeah the last week was very crazy and no matter what I've did (alone or with friends) it was so funny! I love to be in this kind of mood! When everything is funny and beautiful!!! In such time i am also not angry when my car must go into workshop (like today.....) |
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| My new old passion |
[Nov. 20th, 2005|08:32 pm] |
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| | Nightwish-Sleeping sun 2005 | ] |
Last friday I watched Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire aaaaaaaaaaaand i recognized again how hot Lucius and Sanpe are!!!! *drool*
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[Nov. 15th, 2005|07:28 pm] |
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buhuhuhu I've bitten on my tongue......~heul~
it hurts so much........ |
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| scewvndrgjebnt,klörhzkjrlkeölsiykahbgkwl g |
[Nov. 13th, 2005|08:08 pm] |
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| | Meat Loaf- Life is a lemon I want my money back | ] |
THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!
The sun has set!!!
This f***ing sh** day is over!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| A real good song and a cute baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|09:01 pm] |
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| | Nickelback-Photograph (What else?) | ] |
Nickelback_-Photograph
Oh God I looooooooooooooove this song.......it is playing all the time everywhere I am! In my room, on the street (mp3player), my car......EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today my cousin from munich have sent me new pics from her cute little daughter Lisa! She was born in September and she is sooooooooooooooo cute!
Take a look!!!
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| fun...fun...fun.......... |
[Nov. 6th, 2005|07:44 pm] |
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| | Melissa Etheridge- Like the way I do | ] |
Yesterday my friend Christ invited us to a "Bottle-Party" that means he has cooked for us and we have organized the drinks! It was soooooooooo much fun....first we all sat on the Table and ate....but after a few moments Simon and I have talked so much nonsense that he and Franz couldn't stop laughing! Oh god Simon was nearly to suffocate...hahaha his Face turned into a fire red.....hahahahaha...Jenny made a video tape of this...
Later we packed out our favourite song which was a mixture from all kinds of music and we danced and sang! Okay it sounded so cruel when Nancy Chris and I have sang "Like the way I do" but it was quite fun for everyone...
At the end Chris has shown us all a DVD...He made a DVD picture-slideshow and called it "Best Of Diana" I was sooooo moved...*tear* He used all crazy Pics from me and used 3 Elisabeth- Songs( one was my alltime favourite "wenn ich tanzen will")as a backround....this was one of the kindest thing a friend has made for me!!! |
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| Great Performance............... |
[Nov. 5th, 2005|12:10 am] |
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It was so cool tonight! i had so much fun and I am still full of euphoria.....
I love dancing so much and i am still nervous before going an stage allthough I am doing it since 13 years....
After the performance, another member of our group Kathy and I drove home. We didn't want to put off our make up there and so we drove in our full costume home....it was so funny how the people at the traffic lights looked at us....hahahahaha I bet they thought carneval hasn't started yet....when they saw us with the stage make up.....lol
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| blah blah blah.................... |
[Nov. 4th, 2005|05:56 pm] |
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| | Elisabeth-wenn ich tanzen will | ] |
just arrived at home....checking my emails but no suprises for me ;-)
i am tired and hope i will become awake because in 2 hours I have a dance performance!!! maybe I should drink ca 1(-10) cup(s) of coffee....hehe |
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| I am missing them all soooooooooooo much................*cry* |
[Nov. 2nd, 2005|01:21 pm] |
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| | Maria Friedman-If you go away | ] |
Last Night I have done what Ihad should do for so long! Last Night everything broke out!!! I've lain in my bed and there I realized that they are really gone....the tears came up and I started to weep...
My Grandfather and my uncle ( Volker, he and his wife are something like my "second" parent) had dies after ahrd Illness....
Okay my Grand fatehr was old and I know it was the best for him. At last he was suffering... and not able to do things on his own!
Volker is so much harder for me....He was always there! An I miss him so much that I can't find words! On days like yesterday it is special hard. we normally share hollydays together.....have a dinner or so but yesterday there was just an empty chair!!!!!! Just an empty chair... and everyone knew...no one will ever replace him.........!
I have so many nice and lovely memories about him and I thank god for this but last night every single memory hurt so much!
This year I had to grown up! I remember when I've heared about Volker's death! I've cried and didn't want to see anyone. I just lay in my bed listened to "if you go away" and cried tilll I fell to sleep...... The next day I should go the hardest walk of my life! I had to go to his wife and I was so scared to see her! She was always a funny person who smiled a lot and loved the life... I never wanted to see her as such a brocken women!!!!
The funeral was hard as everyone can imagine....but instead of anyone helped me I've carried my mother! She had brocken down...(he was somethink like her best friend) I was strong for her!!!!
When we get the diagnosis of my Grandfather's illness...it was terrible....and who belongs to the strongest although she is one of the youngest Grandchildren? It was me!!!! I've done so much during this Illness...beginning from a long far journey.... to share time with him although he didn't recognized me.....or handle with "home-care-team" how he will die...and so on and so on! I belong to the youngest generation of grandchildren and I have done all this. And it was okay for me when I've done all this...but last night all have brocken out!
Since they both are dead it is not really better....i am still strong for people....
Gitta has changed from a love live person into a bitter and indifferent person....I say I didn't loose 2 to people I loved...NO! I have lost 3......she isn't the same and that hurt as well! I miss her!
I've listen again and again to Maria Friedman's "If you g away" And at the line " I'll be dying slowly.." the tears run more than ever...that is exactly how I feel at the moment....
A part of me is dying as well!!!! |
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