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Tuesday, January 9th, 2007
8:22 am	Skeletons in my closet. I'm moving to a different account name. Please look for my friend Markoman for the new journal. My poorly named Joy Journal will forever be scarred, and I don't intend to keep looking upon the last 4 years of ... stupid immature actions. I'll copy my new resolutions post over to kick things off there. Other then that, I think there is nothing left to say here. It's time to move on with my life. The burden of this journal is a weight I must leave behind. (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 7th, 2007
11:39 pm	Why is it always about me? This is a question that now 3 people have told me before telling me they don't want to talk to me for a long time. And I never got it. I was trying to improve myself for them. I was focused on them. I wanted to help them. I wasn't focusing on myself, I'd tell Jenna, I was focusing on improving myself for her. The thing is, I fell in love with them by feeling sorry for them. I felt sorry for Jenna in her rough situation. I felt sorry for the cockroaches Kris had to wade through. I felt sorry for Trisha's husband abandoning her. I felt sorry for them. And then I said to myself, "hey, I'm lonely, maybe if I show them care they'll fall in love with me." And So I grew to love them. And then when I grew dependent on them, they were growing independent. I depended on Trisha to wake me up every morning. I depended on Kristen to talk to me during the night while I started my new job, and I depended on Jenna to give me a stoping point on my long commute to my new job. When they stopped doing what I needed them to do, I saw that they no longer admired me. They didn't want me as a lifelong companion, but someone to vent to when they needed help. They felt used that I wanted a romance with them. It was never my intention that they feel used. For that, I owe all 3 of you an apology. I want to help people. But helping people to acheive personal goals is the wrong answer. I will no longer do something and expect something in return. My dad talked to me after I told my parents everything that happened with Jenna. And he told me of a ten step program to get out of depresion. Step 1 is to help someone. Step 2 is to repeat step 1. Continue for all 10 steps. :-). Thinking in terms of this, I've seen my life in a total new light. My dad told me that I need to find a purpose in my life. Find out what I want to do. I know what I want to do, I want to help people. You don't help people by marrying them, you help them by helping them install a new hot water heater. You don't help people by ridding them of their own loneliness, you help them by teaching them skills like math. It's like the old story of building a house. If you start on a sandy foundation, and you pile on everything that you want, then when things get bad the foundation will crumble, and everything you've built will be destroyed. If I put my hopes and dreams and plans for the future onto this one person I just met, it'll crumble apart. The foundation won't be able to hold it. That's what Jenna's been telling me the whole time when she said "I think we need to build a friendship". When you build up a friendship, and you start from the things that you truly believe in, then add on top of that foundation a special someone, it all works out. I built an incredibly beautiful house, a great future for myself and her, on top of a shakey foundation. And when the house crumbled, I asked myself why my house fell apart. Where did I mess up? I made a great house, incredibly strong, amazingly wonderful. My house was supposed to be indestructable, and it fell apart. It was only until I got a slap in the face from Jenna and a long talk from my parents that I realized the foundation was the entire reason to blame. I now see what I did wrong. And now, I can finally let go. I am ready to begin my new life. Dad said that if you try to find miss perfect, you'll never get it. But instead, set your sights on your purpose in life. Build up along what you think is right and true. Get involved and do something for the church or for children. And when you begin to focus on what is important, you'll find that someone else will have the same focus as you do. They'll be building a house right next to yours. And then you'll help them touch up their house, and they'll help you fix up your house. And you begin to get involved in each other's lives, and soon the two of you have created a masterpeice, a life together. I want to find the purpose in my life. One pastor once told me that my future was to be a coach. I think that that is where I want to be. I'm someone that sorta leads and guides a really competent group of people. I want to help some charaties. I want to make a difference in this world. I want to help small children and I want to help make others feel good. I'm going to keep praying for tasks that I can do in the near future. I hope something presents itself to me in the next few months. Considering my new job, I won't be able to do much, but I think that it will help me to stop focusing on myself and to help me feel better about myself. If anyone out there can point me in the right way, show me where is a good place to start for local community activities, I would greatly appreciate it. I'm sure once I see a list of things to do, that something will pop out. Current Mood: calm for once (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 5th, 2007
9:20 pm	Psychological whatsits? I'm going in Next wednesday for a doctors appointment. I'm going to ask him to help me with three conditions I believe I suffer from. I am typing this up here in the hopes that people will let me know if my predictions seem sane or if they believe I have other issues. 1.) Social Anxiety Disorder. I don't want to feel like my world is falling apart when I introduce myself to someone. I want confidence in myself. 2.) Depression. I'm sick of crying every night. And then getting mad at myself for crying. And then getting upset at myself for not letting myself cry. And then crying cause I can't decide if I should be upset or being mad. It's a circular phenomenon, and I think I need some anti-depresents to get me out of that cycle and to keep myself out of it. 3.) Bipolar. I'm happy, I'm sad. I'm happy, I'm sad. I'm sick of it. I want something so my feelings are more in control. I want to be CONTENT. Other side effects that I need help describing them in medical terms: A.) My only source of satisfaction is when I fix something. So, like the fire cheif who wants a promotion so he sets fire to something, I cause something to happen. I get mischevious. Then I try to fix things. This is socially unacceptable behavior, but I LOVE the rush I get from it, especially when my fix saves the day. That is something that I think I need to get fixed, but I don't what the hell to call that. B.) Feeling like everyone ignores me. I know people don't ignore me cause they don't like me, but they ignore me cause I'm whining so much. I want to stop feeling like I'm being rejected for something like that. If anyone knows what that condition is called, please let me know. C.) Not taking what I'm given. If someone gives me a million dollars, I'll probably go like "eh, cool". But if I EARN a million dollars, those million bucks are much more valuable. Because of this, I feel like I need to EARN Jenna's affection. Or when my parent's offer to take me to dinner, I don't want to go. I don't know what this drive is either, but I want to stop that, because it's hurt me far more then it's helped. D.) The desire for accomplishment. The desire for accomplishment is not a bad thing. It's the NEED for accomplishment that gets to me. The feeling like I'm a loser because I haven't accomplished my goals. THis probably goes along with C, but I'm too lazy to reword it. :-P My guess is this goes with the depression, so I'm hoping an anti-depressent will make my life a lot easier. E.) The need for social interaction. THis, I believe is normal. Mine however is heightened. TO the point that I annoy off all my friends. This is something that I hope the social anxiety medication will help cure, because then I can make a ton of friends and have a lot of people to talk to, instead of typing to an empty LJ that rarely gets replies from half the people on my friends list. >.< F.) The need to talk to people about all my problems. This I think I can fix with regular psychological visits. That way my psychologist can be my empty LJ that nobody wants to reply or talk about. This will help with my feelings that people are ignoring me. G.) The need to have a buddy for everything. This I think is something that I'll just have to live with. I always want to see movies with someone, snuggle with someone, come home to someone. I want someone to be there to help me along. This is something which I will have to figure out after all the other crap is taken care of. H.) The jealous feelings. I think this is probably the motivator for me wanting to change, but I continuously look at life and still say "why the heck haven't I got a wife like that?". Perhaps it is my fasciantion with good old fashioned fairy tales that has put me in this predicament. I always want to experience the "happily ever after" when I haven't even gotten to the "once upon a time". I want the wife, the kids... cause I want happily ever after. I want to live a happy life, regardless of my ever after. And to continue to pursue that while I haven't even begun to enjoy life ... is pathetic. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 3rd, 2007
10:56 am	Silly Love Songs So, on the way to work, I listen to jack FM. It's nice, plays a bunch of old songs. But lately, I've noticed they play a ton of silly love songs. And right now, I'm just not in the mood for thinking about sex, hot women, and pretty much anything that makes good music good. >.< Instead of muting the radio for half of my 4 hour daily commute, I'd like to find a station that doesn't play silly love songs. Anyone know of any in the LA area? I'd appreciate it if I got info. :-D (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 28th, 2006
10:30 am	12/28/2006 10:30 AM. Created Event Log post at LJ Last night I had a long talk with Jenna. About myself. And basically she told me what I didn't want to hear. The only way to make things happen the way I want is to let them happen. Stop trying to make them happen, and simply go along for the ride. One song on the radio station I hear a lot reminds me of this all the time "Hold on loosely, but don't let go. If you hold on to tight, you'll lose control." So, here I was driving to work. And a question came in my mind. What if...? And I just said the thing to do was get the thought out of my head. I needed to stop thinking about it. Stop worrying, and let whatever happens happen. So I got rid of the thought. I grabbed my pen and some paper, wrote the question down, along with the date and time, and simply thought of something else. I figured, if it's that important, the question is there for when I can talk to Jenna or my family about it. I stopped worrying about it and moved on to more important things, like how I really need to change the oil in my car, or how I needed to bring a map along when I looked at apartments tommorow. And you know what? That helped. In fact, the examples I just used in this post came from the whole list of ideas I had during my entire road trip. I made 2 whole pages of questions, things to remind myself, and basic things like movies I wanted to watch and songs that I wanted to know the titles too. Now just to organize this system. I only hope that the noseys in my life don't find this thing, but I think that I won't have to worry about that once I move out. Ok, wasted 10 minutes of company time on LJ. Back to work I go. ^.^ (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 24th, 2006
5:11 pm	Family Photos I hate family get togethers these days. It's not cause of the fact I'm a social recluse (even though I am). It's not cause of the fact that my parents dissed me (they never did). It's not cause of the fact that I'm a WoW freak and can only spend my spare time playing WoW (which isn't true). It's the fact that I've got nobody to open up to. I'm someone who likes to have in depth conversations. I'll spend 4 hours with you debating the reasons why make-up is treated as an inelastic item by economists while it is in fact, an elastic good which the media has convinced women is inelastic; and I'll have the time of my life explaining it to you and hearing women tell me that they need their make-up. But that's just me. I like debating ideas, bouncing them off other people and listening to them modify them. I'm sorta like Aristotle in that sense, I say the craziest stuff simply so I could get people to talk to me so I can understand things. Now, normally, I can never do that. Between my 7 female cousins who have a close bond, my parents who are helping my grandparents learn their new electronic device, and my aunt and uncle who are mostly watching the football game, I'm all by myself, and I don't have anyone to really talk to that much. During such times, I get lonely, and for the past 3 years have tried in vain to keep a phone conversation or text conversation with whichever woman occupies my current interest until the end of the festivities. They never reply though. Never. And so I'm always bored on Christmas get togethers. This year was no exception. Thankfully I got a coffeeemaker, a ton of kitchen appliances, and 150 bucks to buy stuff for my apartment. Not bad, and I'm grateful for everything they've done. I've been doing a little reflecting on my life recently while I've been sick, which has passed the time, but I think that should be another rant. However, we got great family photos (taken by steph's friend Sarah). They look nice, I just wish I had a photo with my own family in there as well. Ah well, another year and I'll have my own family. Also, I checked out the Wii. It's crap hard to play, but soooo much fun when you get it right. It's really point and click, where you really point the controller where you want your stuff to go. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 19th, 2006
5:15 am	Raid Updates Yeah, I'm gonna say it, even if Rayz told me not to. Last night in MC we had to shard the eye of divinity. 3 Domo kills and we're outta preists to give it too (at least considering the holidays). We need more preists, bad. >.< In other news, I'm like 2k honor from my freakin' GM mageblade. I'd have the blade now but when I woke up they were doing maintanence, which is the only reason I'm really even posting this. Oh well, I guess I'll clean up my room, it's a MESS around here. Finally, I've been looking at local gyms around my area. I need a hobby or 3, and might as well pick one that's healthy for me and will give me self confidence. God knows I need both in my life. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 11th, 2006
1:53 am	I got what I wanted for Christmas Guild First. :-D See the gnome in the turban? That's me. Yeah, it's not the same as Underfoot killin' C'Thun. Nor is it as impressive as a Kel'Thuzzad Kill or anything like that. But it meant a lot to me. I've been with OoT for a long time, and while there are guilds on the server who are in Naxx, I'm incredibly happy that I helped Rayzeel raise up her small guild into an MC guild. We're gonna wait a bit on BWL, as it is a very trying time for most guilds to get through there. But we'll be diving in there in 2007, no doubt about that. Hopefully we'll level up during 3 straight months of Vael wipes. And while I'm proud of this accomplishment, I'm even more excited to say that I've got a new pair of pants on. :-D Ever since I was level 30-ish, I've seen videos of mages who cast fireballs while they're running. PoM is awesome, but a 10% to get it for free is even better for a full frost spec such as myself. T2 8 set bonus is awesome, and it's always been my dream to get that set. Today, I got my first peice of T2. I was like a kid in a candy store. I linked my brand new Netherwind pants to everyone I knew and then some. Also, Rag dropped the stupid trinket. Fun times. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 10th, 2006
1:45 pm	Where I belong? Home is a place where people want to be with you. Home is a place where you don't have to ask "What's Wrong", people know it. But they still ask because they want to help. Home is a place where you have someone to turn to when things get rough. Home is a place where people feel you are important enough to let them know what is happening in their life. I am in a place where people don't miss me when I try to get away from them. I am in a place where I have to talk to the walls when things get rough. I am in a place where I am the last person to know what's going on. I am in a place where I have to hide away the pain, since nobody will listen. I want to be in a place where there is always an open ear. I want to be in a place where people give suggestions to enhance ideas rather then ignore them. I want to be in a place where people tell me what my problem is, not identify the obvious fact that I have one. I want to be in a place where people will understand if things go wrong. I loved someone who told me that I was hers, and that my other friend couldn't have me. I loved someone who told me that she wanted to teach me everything about being in a relationship. I loved someone who always called me when she needed a hug. I loved someone who told me that she felt right when she was with me. I want someone who will stick up for me when I need them. I want someone who will appreciate all that I will do for them. I want someone who will not yell at me when I make a small mistake. I want someone who will comfort me and help me when I make a big mistake. I need someone who I am not afraid to tell them how I feel about them. I need someone who understands me when I tell them why they hurt me. I need someone who will apologize and try to make up to me when they make a mistake, because it's the thought of realizing you hurt someone that is important. I need someone who will not tell me to "deal with it" when they make a mistake. I will be in this place if I don't do any thing about it. I will be miserable unless I make the changes I need to. I will be depressed if I repeat this cycle again. I will be happy when I am finally home. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 8th, 2006
12:14 pm	Mark's Roadtrip For 2007! Soo, for my 23rd brithday, I've gotten my own apartment. Because of this, I'm fulfilling a long wanted dream of mine. A roadtrip across the country with a few friends to see the sights, visit friends I've made, family I haven't seen in ages, and to get to know my accompanying roadmates. I'm taking off 2 weeks surrounding my birthday, and heading out to... well, someplace. That's my big problem, I suppose. Too many destinations, and only 2 weeks. I want input. I'll be traveling sometime within the month of May, 2007 along with 0-3 passengers, one of which may be a small child age 5. However, it is very very likely that it will be just me. I want to know of good places to visit, people who want to see me and give me a hug, or just people who want to hit the road with me. I have specific destinations in mind, but want to know where I'm welcome. If anyone can offer lodging, it's not neccesary but would be uber uber awesome. (I'll do chores! I cook (not very good), wash dishes, take out garbage, and clean up rooms). If you want a visit from your favorite engineering emo geek, lemme know. I hope there's a few people who reply to this. I will likely be traveling anywhere, so even if you think "Meh, it'd be nice if I could have a visit from Mark, but I'm soo out of the way", still reply and lemme know. I'll make a route plan and find out what to do by March of 2007. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 4th, 2006
12:03 am	( Big Image!! ) *cough* We didn't down Ragnaros, but we did kill domo. Rayzeel is our first Benediction wearer. Finished the quest first try. She wished you coulda watched Alyse .... err Kat. But still, it was awesome. I only sheeped myself like 3 times. Srsly. Kerric, me, and Rakhim watched her save the peasants. She even respecced to get holy nova for the quest. It was weird though.... cause you can't see peasants without the eye of divinity equipped. So, we sorta just watched her heal .... noone. Also, for future refernce, if you equip the eye of divinity on a mount, it won't work. At all. We learned this after a petition to a GM and a threaten to ban Rayzeel. It was fun though. She's sooo happy, it's been her dream to get that staff. Next on the agenda? Atiesh. :-D Oh, and above? That's our mascot, floyd, fighting ragnaros. NO, I'm not a female nelf hunter. I'm a male gnome. :-P That's Melwynaria, guild puller. Floyd one-shotted ragnaros. srsly. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
6:17 am	Symmetry If you know me a bit, you know I like to do a lotta math. Sometimes, I'll sit in my room and work on a problem and have more fun then hanging with friends or playing a game. I'm a bit odd like that. Lately I've been taking a class, describing Issac Newton, and realized something. That man was a genius, but he kept many of his ideas to himself. I realized that I should keep some sorta log of ideas. For example, the idea of symmetry. It's a basic one. The right side of a butterfly and the left side of the butterfly look the same. Everyone knows this from there kindergarden days. But take a look at the world of mathematics. For example, (a+b)^2. When you do the math, you get a^2 + 2ab + b^2. Simple enough. Repeat again: (a+b+c)^2 = a^2 + b^2 + c^2 + 2ab + 2ac + 2bc. Here lies a challenging issue. Writing this phrase symetrically. See, a^2 + 2ab + b^2 has an inherent symmetry in itself. But there is no such way for (a+b+c)^2. Just play with the permutations. Now this may seem boring, but it's important. The fact is, unless you know allready what (a+b+c)^2 looks like, when a = (dy/dx) and b = 3x and c = 4*y, you may not be able to solve the differential equation (dy/dx)^2 + 9x^2 + 16y^2 + 6*x*(dy/dx) + 8*y*(dy/dx) + 24*x*y = 100 by realizing it's just the same as ((dy/dx) + 3x + 4y)^2 = 10^2, hence dy/dx + 3x + 4y = +/- 10, which is easily solvable: (dy/dx) + 4y = +/- 10 - 3x e^(4x)(dy/dx) + 4*e^(4x)*y = (+/- 10 - 3x)*e^(4x) d(y*e^(4x))= e^(4x)*(+/- 10 - 3x)*dx y = e^(-4x)*int(e^(4x)*(+/- 10 - 3x),x) The major reason behind symmetry's importance is simple. Most problems in physics have some symmetry to them. The reason behind this? The indistinguishibility of space. The whole phenomenon is that no matter where you are, physics stays the same. Who's to say that North America is on top and South America is on bottom? What if the world is actually hanging "upside down" in space? Would the laws of physics change? Nope. Set your reference frame anywhere you want to, and the laws of physics will stay the same. You can even set your reference frame in motion, but Einstein did that one to death. ;-). Because of this, we can start ourselves usually at a "local refernce frame". This reference frame is the best one we can get. It's oriented just right and at the exact point in motion that all of our equations become a lot more simple. Then we convert from local reference frame to global reference frame, which requires some constant equations, and *poof* all the hard work without the sweat. So easy is it, that everything can be transformed not only into a spatial reference frame, but a dimensionless one as well. What's the difference between a 2 inch apple and a 20,000 km planet? Only the diameter. They're still both spheres. If something takes n dimensions to know exactly, then it can be redescribed in terms of n-1 dimensionless quantites and 1 dimension. Now, to put this into practice. Euler did this problem, and for some reason I am having difficulty putting this in terms of eliptical integrals like he did: Take 2 masses, toss them out into space. Keep them fixed in their positions in space by whatever means neccesary. Now, put in a third mass. Tell me the position this mass will take as it's attracted to the other 2 masses by gravity. This problem seems hard, but can be greatly simplified. Pick the biggest of the first two masses. Now, we're gonna say that has a mass of 1 planet. Then the lesser of the two initial masses is v planets and the mass of the tiny particle is q planets (it cancels out in the end). Now, align a cylindrical coordinate system up in such a way that the origin is at the first planet, the z axis points to the second mass, and the r axis is pointing towards our small mass. Finally, call the distance between the 2 planets as 1 dist, and then the distance to the small particle is r miles in the r, theta, and z directions. This is converted into dist cause we like dimensionless results. Finally, the gravitational constant can be set as 1 with appropriate units of time. This is now a simplified mathematical problem. Yet look at it again from a new perspective. Since we know the small particle will be attracted to the center of mass of the two masses, then that seems to be a logical origin point as well. Plus, this is only a minor shift in the z-axis. For the restricted 3 body problem on the mathematica site I typically use (just google 3 body problem), they use this point as the origin. The gravitational forces will be directed in the z directions and none in the theta directions. Yet using this as a reference frame makes for difficulty in the z directional equations. The beauty of said referencing is when one adds a third mass (fixed in space) to the problem. Now, we reference twice, again from the heaviest planet. Two reference systems, except we'll need to toss in a new dimensionless distance, and the angle that the two vectors make. Since our initial particle can have a starting velocity component in the theta direction, angular momentum cannot be ignored, and will be accelerated in via the third particle. However, since we can start with a local reference system and converrt it to a global system, this simplifies computation. Perhaps later I'll go into more symmetry detail, but for now I need to get back to school work. (Comment on this)
Friday, November 17th, 2006
8:26 am	I've reached the crossroads of my life.... ... and my best friend, the only one who has kept me from going insane for the past few months is going back home for a month. Well, time to learn how to live on my own. :-) (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 2nd, 2006
1:41 am	I think I've realized something... I've realized something I never really knew till today. And now that this thought is in my head, it won't leave. And I think for good reason too. I'm gonna need some alone time after today, to decide what to do. (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 28th, 2006
10:58 pm	Test day! I was out for 12 stinking hours. Taking a test. It was awesome. I guess everyone else there had a life at some point, cause I didn't seem to really notice. *Shrugs* I've worked on single math problems for longer then 12 hours at a time. :-P. But then again I have no life. If I did, I wouldn't have a warcraft account. "How can you kill that which has no life?" End of proof. I think I did pretty good. Just wish government officials weren't so lazy. Seriously, we get in, and wait an hour and a half to start the exam. Take the morning part of the test (4 hours). Head to lunch, where the people promise the doors will open 45 minutes later. 20 minutes after they said the doors will open, they're open. Walk in, wait another half hour to get people seated, and then take the afternoon session, which is another 4 hours. While you're waiting for the test to get started, you can't do nothing. You can't talk on a cell phone, you can't read a book, you can't have any reference materials except the little book they give you (which you're not allowed to read). Nothing to do. Lazy government asses. :-P Other then that, I start work on Tuesday. Yep, I start on halloween. It's a four hour commute (round trip). Hopefully I'll graduate and I'll be able to move out by the middle of December and then the commute will only be one hour (round trip). Jenna is helping me look over appartments. She knows what's good and what's trashy. :-P (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 26th, 2006
10:41 am	Sacrifice! So, I've been given the title of "Sacrificial Gnome" in my guild. I feel so special. I've allready pulled Kurinaxx in AQ20 with an ice block pull. It was kind of an accident, but still... But still, I've got the unusual power that unless I die while we're learning a boss encounter, we'll never kill the boss. We wiped on Onny twice. Third time, I died to one of the dragons on the outside of her cave. Then we killed her. Akuri got our first T2 Helm. Lanse was sooo jealous. :-P We kept wiping on Baron Geddon. I get the living bomb twice in a row, and die. (My low hp can't tackle a living bomb crit T_T). Then we kill him. And I was the first to die when we had our first Hakkar kill, almost a month and a half ago. :-P I dunno, I was thinking about it in the shower. Clearly, without my special aid, nobody would advance. Therefore, I should be special, and get all the loots. :-D (And yes, I'm making fun of purple fever.) (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 22nd, 2006
1:26 am	OMGOMGOMG I gotta job. I gotta good job. 44 grand a year, working in a laboratory testing fiber optic cable. And 44G will go up once I get my bachelor's degree and pass my EIT exam. Along with Medical Benefits, a retirement plan, and 10 days paid vacation. Oh, and today was guild's first Rajaxx kill. We were gonna try to do our first Majordomo kill, but nobody showed up. Thank you Kat, for introducing me to your guild, I've enjoyed a lot of the people there. :-D (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 9th, 2006
8:22 pm	Extinction is Heaven So, I logged into Y!PP. First thing I heard was from Piplicus: "I thought you were extinct!" I replied, "You never saw me!" In the spirit of the original intention of this journal, I'm deleteing most of my whiney emo posts. That's not who I am anymore. I have learned a lot about myself in the past few months, and I have learned that the world ISN'T ABOUT ME! zomg! Yes, it's true people. I know you all were worshiping me secretly, but now it's time to cool it down. I've also learned a lot about ideas. Seems that Invention = Inspiration + Ibeeing there at the right time. Or something like that. People weren't ignoring me, they just ... didn't see my point. I need to learn how to explain things better. :-P So, now what? Well, I'm still in need of a job. If I don't have a reply from my proffessor by the end of this week about the job I applied for, I'm gonna bite the bullet and get a crap job. Prolly at toys'r'us. Ugggh. Christmas at a toys store... Well, it'll pay the bills. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, July 17th, 2006
7:45 am	A time to laugh, a time to cry. A time to live, a time to die. Newton passed away in the early hours of this morning. He must have eaten something poisonous when I let him out in the yard to eat. Kinda ironic it's on my parent's anniversary too... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 29th, 2006
8:47 am	Sometimes, I really wonder... So, I just logged off WoW a couple minutes ago, from my level 19 druid. Why? Cause I just got booted from my group. Well, I must've done something terribly wrong to get booted from my group, right? Perhaps I did. I was going to fast. Now, I know when to let the hunter pull, and when to just charge in and start killing as a tripped out bear. And I thought this was an ok time to just charge in and kill. But no, this room was apparently too dangerous for the group leader, who immediately booted me from the instance. Now, that seems fair. But then to send me nasty tells until I logged off? Come on. If you and I don't work out, /ignore each other and leave it at that. Sigh... I need to find a nice group of people to instance with. I can't wait until I'm 50+ when every instance is very cut and dry (there are no rooms where you can just charge in and kill stuff), and I can just do what everyone's told me to do. Save the mana for healing, sheep and resheep and nobody will attack the sheep. Build your rage and keep your aggro. I know what to do, but on these low level instances, it's ok to have some fun, right? (Comment on this)