[04 Sep 2008|05:21pm] Friends Only I'm not a good friend to have, so don't add me. 192 comments|post comment

Happy Birthday Bash! [17 Jul 2008|05:34pm] [ mood | chipper ] H'okay! So. My 21st birthday is on Monday the 21st and Conrad and I will be up at the Ameristar Casino from 7 or 8pm until God-Knows-When. I had planned to have a sort of "party" and am inviting all the friends I know that are 21 and up. So. If you would like to go *coughMomandKatieandMegumicough* LEMME KNOW and like... CALL ME or like... SHOW UP or something. I really plan on like... hanging out and playing the penny slots or the quarter slots and avoiding getting smashed (Conrad wants to see what I'm like when I'm drunk). I am a horribly boring person. :) 12 comments|post comment

I'm not sure how to say this [01 Apr 2008|11:49am] [ mood | scared ] So... you know how... for the past week, my back has been feeling a lot better... and... well, Conrad has been getting really whiny so I've been giving in to him to make him feel better. :/ :\ I took the test when I woke up this morning because it's been a few days and I just haven't felt right. It was definitely positive. I even took a picture with Conrad's phone to prove it. I'm pregnant. ( Picture under the cut to save your friends pages. ) 15 comments|post comment

The feelings haven't dissipated. [29 Feb 2008|10:53pm] [ mood | lonely ] I feel strangely dissatisfied with my life--as if I have chosen the wrong path. I'm not talking about a career path. It's... the... everything-else path. This isn't really... me. Is it? :/ I also really really miss Sarah. Hardcore. I don't miss her in a lover's way, though. She was my best friend... and Annie and Nicole... they were all I had. I had so much fun with all of them, and it disappeared in an INSTANT when I just couldn't take Sarah's possessiveness anymore. I miss them as friends and I want to talk to them again. I think maybe then I will feel better. I also think that while I feel safe and secure with Conrad... and I know my family feels better that I'm with him... I also miss that best-friend-companionship that accompanies a girlfriend. There's a closeness and a connection there that someone just can't achieve with a guy. Or maybe I'm just having my "oh my god this could be it for me--no more dating or flirting or going out with friends or anything. I'm stuck for life and forever and ...that's... it..." moment. Sure, I want to have a child...a boy... but I always figured I would be a single mom. :/ Huh. I guess I also just... need some friends. Or to get on AIM and just talk to people again. Or RP. Yeah... RP. It's been almost a year since my last RP. My likes are: Phoenix Wright Scrubs Lucky*Star Heroes Digimon ...would anyone want to talk to me about any of that? I suppose I'll need to get an AIM screen name again... all the ones I used to use were.... Sarah... names... like TheGeiInGeika and stuff and I think it's better for me if I don't use those. 20 comments|post comment

Kyou Kara Sadness :/ [29 Feb 2008|04:26pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] I came across an old AMV favorite of mine... from Kyou Kara Maou. It made me feel really sad and I started to cry. Actually... all of the Kyou Kara Maou characters make me incredibly sad when I see them. They stir up some memories that I've been trying to push into the back of my mind, lately. I wonder how everyone is and if they're all okay... :/... I'm happy with my life and I will continue to look to the future! \o/ post comment

Rest in Peace, Debbie [03 Dec 2007|10:33am] [ mood | sad ] Last night at 6:40pm, my stepmother passed away. She has been suffering from lung cancer and brain tumors since 2004, so I'm glad that she is no longer in any pain. She died in my father's arms and her son Shaun was with her, too. So at least she left peacefully. The last time I saw her was one week before she died. A bunch of uncles were over for a football game. I sat with Debbie on the couch and showed her Dr. Mario. When we left, I gave her a hug and a tiny kiss on the forehead and told her that I loved her. And I said that both Angel and Conrad said hello. She smiled at me. So I know she knew who I Was and that she understood what I Was saying. It was a very good last moment to have with her and for that I am thankful. I had my cry a few days ago when I received an e-mail from father stating that Debbie had declined to a basically comatose state. I think I knew then that she was gone and had accepted it. I know I'll cry again in a few days during the wake and the funeral. Conrad's mother is even letting Conrad take off work to come with me if he needs to. I love you, Debbie. ♥ 3 comments|post comment

Family Pictures! [26 Nov 2007|07:03pm] [ mood | loved ] First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY mommmymoose!!! You are the best mother evar! Speaking of mother... When I went to her house to visit with the family, we took some pictures and mothermom just got finished uploading all of them! So now, finally, you get to see what the sweet Angel looks like. And Conrad. ( Ah, good ol' family fun. ) And so that's the new additions to the family. I don't know how big the pictures are because they're just directly from my mother's camera to her photobucket. But yay! ♥ 17 comments|post comment

Reflections of the recent past. [15 Nov 2007|06:27pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | Death Cab for Cutie - Transatlanticism ] I've had a lot of time on my hands lately, so I took today to sit back and fill out a few more job applications before curling up on the couch with my laptop. It's been a few weeks since I've been on this thing... I normally use Conrad's laptop because it is connected to WoW and aside from checking my e-mail and LJ every so often, I never use the internet for much. So today I caught up with Avatar (which, btw, ZUKO! also, I'm very pleased with Sokka's character development. Anyway.) and got myself hooked on a couple of Boy's Love webcomics. It was pretty nostalgic, mostly since I was so into the shounen-ai/yaoi scene not too long ago. They were cute. Well-drawn, etc. I saw a lot of generic story-telling and too many typos. Things were a little TOO fangirl-y and cliche... but then I found out that 2 of the three comics I had been reading were written by 15-year olds, so I gave them the benefit of the doubt. I remember what I was like at 15. (In fact, I had a DeadJournal when I was 15 and could go read it if I really wanted. Haha.) The problem is, I decided it was too quiet and put on some iTunes. The songs I have are so OLD that each song brought back a different memory. There were a lot of Prince of Tennis memories... convention memories, cosplay memories, RP memories, community, icons, Kyou Kara Maou... etc. But, you know... Death Cab for Cutie had to arrive and that band can't get any more emo, can they? Before I knew it, Transatlanticism came on and... that was the very first song Sarah had ever dedicated to or associated with me. So, of course, Sarah memories came flooding back. This is the first time I've written about Sarah since I broke up with her, so it's kind of weird. :/ ( As if you want to read it, right? ) 10 comments|post comment

RPs [18 Jul 2006|10:47pm] I just want to clean up my userinfo. ( RP things )

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