::step one..slit my throat::

Time:

2:42 pm.

Well its been forever since ive updated this journal. Gosh where to start out. Things did start looking up.
Im living with three of my friends now in town, we have lots of fun and great parties.
No net access just yet but Im off to check about it after I finish this entry.
Im decently happy which is pretty new.
ran into my ex and he looks like shit so its always uplifting.
I guess there is nothing more to report.

my number is 270-403-4660 if any of you take pity on my lack of internet and wish to ring me.

-Seville

p.s SEX ROCKS!

that is all.

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Time:

1:49 am.

So a lot has happened these past couple of months, maybe one day I will write everything in. This week has been the weirdest one ive had in forever... currently im sitting here right now with 14 staples in my head. It got cut open today and I bled like mad.

tomorrow is my 6 month aniversary of not cutting.
i have a job.
i went to an msi concert wednesday.
i hung out with my ex pfff
will and i hardly talk.
i cant allow myself to have casual sex.
my heads numb and I will have an ugly scar.
I will do better next time.

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Time:

5:11 pm.

josh and I are over, I cant believe what a dick he wound up being, he didnt have the guts to break up with me face to face he just started ignoring me, so come to find out he left me for an ex.
Im still hurt about it..its been about 2 weeks or so.

suddenly ive become desirable to guys and three have asked me out since him and I ended.

and in a few weeks I should be moving out to California.. so yeah

this was just a quick update.

-Seville

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Time:

11:54 pm.

*sighs* I havent updated this baby in forever.

Things are still going strong with the boyfriend. I care about him a lot, hes a wonderful guy..my only problem is he has a drug addiction.. to coke.
Scary I know but we're working on ways to keep him straight.

I got horribly messed up on New Years, Ive never EVER been that drunk and high at the same time. I tried coke too, the first and last time.
Im going with him to Louisville tomorrow to pick up checks for his work.

Hes reminds me alot of William Vogel, I mean its uncanny..except Josh is almost 21 and Will just tured 20.
Well I need to get some shut-eye.

goodnight.

love,

Me

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Time:

10:07 pm.

jaggers came over
tequila
margarita mix
jen,jaggers,me,blake,ashley,brooke.
everyone but jen and blake drunk
happy fun kisses
beer
sad, worried, scared, crying bleeding
jaggers cried, held me, kissed my cheek, forehead and stroked my hair
loves me
i dont know why
more crying
movie and holding

leaves to sneak in to spend the night
is a little drunk meets security

jaggers takes blame
seach my room only find one beer
jaggers is 19
goes to jail i cry and cry

i love him

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Time:	2:22 pm.
Mood:	excited.
Music:	Rancid {} Fall Back Down.

Hey, just a quick entry.. i waited (stupidly) to pack so im doing it all right now. tomorrow I move in to the dorm so I wont be on for a while.
Last weekend I went to a concert/festival the bands were decent but spending a night snuggled with a guy looking at the shooting starts made it all better.

Paxton is in BG at Western and has a new love interest...Kate >< uh met Jens roommate yesterday shes pretty cool, I think we'll all get along.

Sunday were going to BG to see Paxy and the crew.

Next Friday is my b-day so Kegger down in BG

and thats pretty much it.
Oh yeah my schedule is

MWF - Principles Of Psych, Basic Math, English 1
TR - Intro to Communication , World Civ 1

jesus sounds like my H.S schedule back in the day. Im only doing 15 credit hours for right now, I may go up to 16, or down to 12 I dunno, anyhow I need to get back to packing!

love,
Seville

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Time:	8:19 pm.
Mood:	calm.
Music:	Rufio {}{ Above Me.

Today I went to Wallyworld and ended up seeing Joey Jones ( stomach man) and his friend "marcus" as I named him. We talked for a good 10 mins catching up on everything, it was really nice.
I ended up getting a 1.8 Cubic Ft Fridge for the dorm, I already have the comforter, blanket, sheets,and towels. Tomorrow we are going to E-town so I will get more there, and then Saturday is another day of shopping.

Currently im trying to find a vintage looking changing screen.. it can be a reproduction (which is really what I want)today we searched every thrift/furniture/consignment/antique store in Campbellsville for it, we did find one but it wasnt in the best of shape and she wanted 50 dollars for it. Poppy wanted to buy it but I wouldnt let him.

For the dorm im doing this whole little girl meets dead celeb theme, im sticking with the color scheme of pink, white, blue, yellow. I already have my Marilyn poster as well as I love Lucy, James Dean and Charlie Chaplin. Then I will end up intermixing those photos with I have taken.

School starts August 23rd, move in day is the 21st. The Friday of that week is my birthday. So that means party for me down in Bowling Green at Tom,Gunn, Joey's new townhouse.First week is definately going to get hectic.
Also Jennifer got a truck so she might be coming up to Lindsey for college, she just needs to get some cash..well im going to search online for that changing screen.

love,
Seville

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Time:	10:15 am.
Mood:	hungry.

Today I had that placement test at LWC. The results were interesting. I scored really high on the reading test so I dont have to take a reading class. I have college level english and basic math haha, I knew I would do horribly on math.. but thats okay.
After about 30 mins of being sent back and forth to different places Jeannine and I got into the dorms so I could snap a few pics to get an idea of my space...and yeah thats my day in a nutshell.

Im thinking about going outside and relaxing on my porch for an hour or two.. or hm I dont know, I guess I shall see.

-Seville

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Subject:	Lindsey Wilson
Time:	12:53 pm.
Mood:	ecstatic.
Music:	The Contingency Plan.

So I attempted to go to sleep last night.. but it wasnt sucessful. 7A.M I started getting ready for Orientation at Lindsey Wilson. Nana, Jeannine and I stopped at Mickey D's in Campbellsville and treked down to Columbia. After I checked in, we were sent to the dining hall, I saw someone I knew Barbra! she came alone so of course I sat with her and we caught up. The Edge was pretty cool, I enjoyed it. After we had different challenges, expectations classes and lunch we were sent to the gym to get different things done like fincial aid, student Ids, houseing.. etc.
Charity got me 16,000 something, and all I have to pay is the difference of two which rocks.

Barbra was originally supposed to room with Amanda Morgan but shes sort of disapeared ( shes gotten back into drugs and such) so her and I signed up together which is peachy because I know we will get along great.
We had one of The Edge leaders show us around campus, so we saw the freshmen dorms.. eh they kinda suck but then again most dorms do. They have no A/C and the bathrooms suck 2 showers, 2 toilets... luckily each room has a sink.
The rooms are a lot bigger than I expected. I need to start dorm room shopping.
So after it was over, I came home and slept for a few hours.. I awoke with my social security number inked onto my neck/chin area ( I had written it on my hand earlier today and I ended up sleeping on my hand)

*note to self* get learners permit.. or find out if once Im 18 I can just go and get my license.

-Seville

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Time:

11:52 pm.

Im back from Canada...well err Maine. The trip was interesting to say the least, I really dont feel like typing it all out right now. I will get around to it eventually.
Lets just say our tranmission died twice costing us 4 thousand. We had to leave Canada to get it fixed and spent the rest of the trip in Maine, but we did find a summer home we will probably buy.

Oh yeah last night lots of drama surfaced after I played a pratical joke on Billy and let some air of of his tires, drama drama.
Anyhow, Im going to go.

-Seville.

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Time:	5:36 pm.
Music:	Tom Petty {} You Dont Know How It Feels.

Well the plan was since I stayed up to 7AM discussing this "plan" with Daniel that we would just stay up the rest of the day because my sleep schedule is so off. Tonight Im just going to drink some nyquil and head off to bed around 11 o'clock or so.

I had a dream about Gunn this morning.

</i>Well I was at school in the home/familes type class and i found a bottle of rum and made a daquiri. I left the class in the middle of prayer and went to the computer lab. I was signing in and the guy was pissed that my whole class was coming. He said it put too much of a workload on the computer and on "Gunn" I wondered if it was you but I thought nah. Then I walk into the lab and John was sitting at a computer with a couple other guys.
I go to take a seat and I end up sitting at the main computer which was Gunns, but he let me use it anyway and we started talking. Then we end up outside and we were watching the cars pull in and out and then next thing I know my friend Valerie comes and she has a razor blade
She came out in the middle of our discussion on alcohol. I told Gunn about drinking that morning and stuff and he said it was bad to drink that early in the morning.
Then she said yeah well seville does a lot of bad things, gestering to my arms and you came up to me and pulled back my sleeves and started lookin at my arms, and touching my scars. Then we walked down this hallway a bit and somehow our legs got intertwined together and we were in this compromising position. Then you rolled up the window and we ended up at a kitchen and you put my hands into the sink and turned on the water. It just flowed over my hands and then the sink started to overflow and there were lemons and limes floating in the sink.
Then I woke up.</i>

I am a hippocrite. When I feel apathetic I hate it because I want to feel something. When I feel something negative like depression, I say I wish I could feel absolutely nothing. I guess I'd like to have my cake and eat it too, but that doesnt work in the real world. I guess maybe apathy is better than depression.

And.. whoa I just got this sudden wave of horniness.

I really need to start packing for what I want to take with me to Canada.I need to get film for my camera too... yes yes film would help.

<3,

Seville

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