i know, i know, i'm not updating regularly! apologies to those of you who want my bored ramblings, haha.



my 'summer goal list' is going pretty well, i think. i've been eating and ~living~ vegan for about two weeks, i love it! i think i eat more of the foods i really like, i've also been cooking more of my own meals and eating less processed shit.

i've been going to the library regularly, usually about once a week, and finishing 3-6 books in that one week span. 'the dogs of babel' by carolyn parkhurst was amazing. i got some 'no bite' polish for my nails so i haven't been chewing on them at all lately, woohoo.

i'm usually up by 11, i've signed up for cake decorating classes, gotten a new cookbook and a cute apron, put in an application at a craft store, and have been saving money (more like change) at an excruciatingly slow pace for my next tattoo.

uhhh anything else? i don't know if i'll eventually commit to doing yoga every day or not, because it was so much easier when i was following a teacher instead of inventing my own routine, but i will maybe start lifting jars of tomato sauce as weights and i really want to get a cheap bike to ride around.

oh and i'm talking to my dad about signing up for piano lessons, but i forget to remind him.

how are you?

this will be the summer i go insane despite efforts not to.

goals:

get my license

~GET MONEY~, aka a job

save money for korea! andchinaandindiaandthailandetc.

do yoga every day (plus some other exercising - weight lifting?)

take piano lessons!/practice more

play drums more!

go to the flea market at least once a month with dad

thrift more, dress better

wear sunscreen (i had the worst sunburn ever last week, good god. MY KNEES, HALF OF MY FACE, MY BACK)

try harder with korean

make an effort to learn russian? inspired by my foreverlove for gogol bordello

walk barefoot outside

stop picking at my face! blurgh

get on the internet far less

care less about people who don't care

walk molly (at night, i can't handle virginia summers)

craft more - paint, make bracelets, etc.

write to somebody

GO TO THE LIBRARY, finish at least one book a month. i haven't finished a book in forever

watch a new movie every week

stop biting my nails [for good]. i did it once for about a month, i know i can do it again!

follow some kind of routine, so i wake up and sleep earlier

tattoos! that's all i need to say about that

wear bras less (you read that right!)

cook more often, bake more often, practice my cake decorating

do the dishes/clean more often when i'm at my dad's

since i'm not going to culinary school and don't have to worry about that potential intake of eggs and dairy - go vegan!

volunteer (for an animal shelter or a library or both)

sing more when i'm listening to music, because i know i love doing it

make more plans to hang out with friends (amy, billy, casey, sonya even though she's leaving me, whoever else would like to bask in my love)

hopefully the effect of all this will be that, by the end of summer, i will be healthier, fitter, talented?, more artistic and expressive, happier, etc. but i'm mostly hoping it'll make me a little more dependent on myself so that, when The Boyfriend© leaves october 1st, i will not fall apart or go crazy missing him - a clingy girlfriend does not a successful relationship make.

tomorrow my dad, his girlfriend and i will be going to this concert where these guys supposedly look and sound exactly like the Beatles so I'm pretty excited, fun will be had. then on friday, luis' dad has tickets for all of us to go to this riverdance thing in vienna which should be interesting, and we might go to the sunflower afterwards.

i'll try to keep the updates regular! :]

motherfuckin' update post, ( WITH PICTURES ), because 'holy shit it's been 3 months'. also my life is reasonably awesome right now.

Okay so I want to post an entry about the Cake concert while it's still relatively fresh in my mind.

IT WAS AMAZING.
Really, really it was. We ate at this restaurant that was in the venue because they'd let you into the concert about 15 minutes early; Amy and I were completely front and center, it was amazing. The first opening band was Agent Ribbons, they were two girls and they were so incredibly cute and I got their CD. After that was Oakley Hall, King City, and Detroit Cobras. Whatever I ate had started to make me feel really shitty, so about three times (during those three bands) I had to keep getting pulled out by the security guards so I could go and throw up in the bathroom. Awesome, right? The first time I almost started crying because I was worried about losing my place, but the security guard escorted me back in. The second time the two security guards (I'm referring to two in my head specifically because we were BFFs the whole night) pulled me out right over the barrier. I cried the most the third time I had to throw up because I was realizing how much it sucked to not be able to stop throwing the fuck up. I did not want to fucking miss Cake when I was so close.

So anyways, it's around 10 oclock and Cake finally comes on stage and Amy and I are like screaming and just completely loving it and I'm dancing and feeling great for about two songs.. then I suddenly felt worse than I ever did before, and motioned for the security guards to pull me out again. I walked about 5 feet before throwing up on the floor. One of my security guards pulled a trashcan over and I threw up some more. A couple people were smiling at me? Why would you grin at someone throwing up like a miserable bastard? Anyways, I took my sweater off, wiped my face (oh yes, yes I did) and I told the security guard I wanted to go back but he told me that even if it was just my stomach, I was probably getting really hot which would only make it worse. I CRIED LIKE A BITCH, because I was just so frustrated that this shit was happening to me. Luckily my mom and her boyfriend were right there and had a place where I could sit. I could still see the whole stage and hear fine, but it wasn't where I wanted to be, right in front of Mr. John McCrea. And we really were so close to him, we could almost touch him and freaking taste his sweat, goddammit. So for about two songs, I'm crying and shaking and sipping on Sprite, but Amy soon joined me and I was all cheered up so we just enjoyed the rest of the concert and laughed at everything John said.

I remember them playing.. Comanche, Ruby Sees All, Frank Sinatra, The Distance, Friend is a Four Letter Word, Stickshifts and Safetybelts (haha, one of the songs I cried through), Never There, Opera Singer, Short Skirt Long Jacket, Comfort Eagle, Love You Madly, Ruby Don't Take Your Love to Town, and War Pigs. Those aren't in order, I might be wrong and I probably missed a few, but I don't really care about accuracy haha. Short Skirt Long Jacket was so much fun, there was like a "na na na" battle between everyone on the left vs. the right that went on for like a good 10 minutes. Everything they played was perfect, but War Pigs was great too, really fitting.

Basically it was an amazing night besides whatever was going down in my stomach and I want to see them again as many times possible.

Next up is Citizen Cope and I plan on going hungry that day, haha.

Saturday was a lot of fun too, Amy and I got to go to our beloved Sunflower.. we ordered a full $40 of food, got most of it to go, and had the waiters laughing at us, haha. We did some shopping too and tried on a lot of ridiculous dresses. ( What we ended up wearing.. )

1. Pick 15 films you love/thoroughly enjoy.
2. Find screen stills for each film.
3. See how many people guess correctly.

I know a lot of these won't be recognizable to most, but I'm bored and avoiding schoolwork so it's alright. ( Enjoy looking at caps. )

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New music rotation with just mimei and I right now. :] I posted there today with something special, so you guys should check it out and/or join before it becomes members only or something.